I’m a control freak. This is an aspect of myself that I eventually embraced when I found out about my Enneagram personality type being The Perfectionist. I like getting things right and I hate making mistakes, hence I have the need to keep every area of, and situation in my life under control. Although my perfectionism allows me to get things done and has afforded me with a great deal of success, it sometimes blocks my experience of miracles – which can only occur through trust and surrender.
One area I haven’t yet managed to gain control of is the technical management of my website. A year ago I decided that I wouldn’t lose precious creative time meddling with tech stuff, and instead I’d hire people to deal with it. That meant handing over control of my website to someone else, something that my ego wasn’t very pleased with… In an attempt to soften my uneasiness and gain as much control as I could, I ended up hiring three website administrators, and keeping myself in a constant state of worry and alertness, fearing that my website would go down, get hacked, or get damaged in some way.
It was inevitable then, that the vibration of fear and uneasiness that I kept active within me would eventually manifest in real-life circumstances, that’s why I wasn’t surprised when my website’s design got stripped off last Wednesday morning. Panicked, I sent a frantic email to my web admins asking them to look into it, only to get a simplistic response saying that my website had gone into self-attack mode and the only solution would be to restore a back-up version.
How interesting that my own self-attack, in the form of lack of trust, was mirrored on my website.
Catapulted by fear but knowing that this was a call for me to heal, I decided to take a Higher approach. I affirmed my favourite Louise Hay affirmation for when something goes wrong, “Out of this situation only good will come. This is easily resolved to the highest good of all concerned. All is well and I’m safe,” and then thanked the angels for healing my website. I closed my eyes, and envisioned Archangel Michael instilling my website with white light, ensuring its protection and restoring it to its highest state.
It wasn’t two hours after I’d asked the angels for support that I checked my website to see that it had gone back to normal. I was flabbergasted! Checking with my web admin to ensure he wasn’t the one who fixed it, I let out a sigh of relief and let myself bask in the miracle. At that same time I was listening to Gabrielle Bernstein’s Hay House World Summit interview when she said a quote that captured perfectly the state of being that I had ascended to:
“I don’t believe in miracles. I rely on them.”
Is it easy for you to trust that your goals and frustrations will be taken care of by a power higher than yourself? What techniques, prayers, or affirmations do you use do so? Share them with me in the comments below.